I don’t want to jump the gun, but I can sense myself changing. That sounds corny. But changing into someone whose an optimist, who leverages the power of enthusiasm and doing emotional labor. If you don’t like who you are now, why don’t you change it? Why stay stagnant in your subpar version of yourself? Why are you in a subpar version of yourself yet you desire a girlfriend or boyfriend? Do you think they deserve your shitty version? That’s just totally unfair to them. If you know you’re not at all close to your potential, then why do you think it’s okay to share yourself with someone else intimately and romantically? Your’e just using them to make yourself feel better! So grow. And continue growing and learning. Stop being complacent! Put the work in. You will thank yourself later.